Father's Day Special

[00:00:04] You're listening to PBN You're passed back to stability here. Oh my, does it do my so good to be behind this microphone? Wow, I didn't expect this feeling. Oh, I didn't expect this feeling. I uh...

[00:00:43] This is the infected commander coming to you from the Prepper Broadcasting Network, the infected commander. I... um... I've been going through a PBN family. It is wild. It is wild. I think I've pretty much dialed it all in from a spider bite

[00:01:05] poisoning to an infected wound which has gone and moved now into some kind of virus that is brought about just a brutal fever and I'm living between I'm living between like the first three to four hours of ibuprofen right now.

[00:01:26] It sounds terrible. It's so not me. I mean, it's like nothing. It has to do with the rest. I mean, so anybody who's worried out there, it has fundamentally has to do with the rest. It's been a run-up to an important week this week.

[00:01:44] Work had to get done. Stress, money, you know, all the things that lead up to the kind of week that I'm having this week and you know, just

[00:01:56] is what it is. It catches up with you, you know, even a guy like me, it catches up and it's caught up with me full scale. Full scale! But you know, it is what it is. We're gonna make the most of it.

[00:02:10] I don't want to complain. This is a Father's Day special. It is later than I would have liked. I couldn't even talk last night when the time came for me to do this show. I was like, there's just no way that's happening. So

[00:02:23] didn't happen. You know what I mean? But again, everything's on the up-and-up. I'm on antibiotics, you know, don't worry yourself. We're gonna talk about things that fathers need. Gifts that prepper fathers should have and consider. I got a list man.

[00:02:45] I got a list. I got some new stuff I've never seen before that are kind of on my wish list. Cool stuff, you know what I mean? Hydro blue. I can't forget that. You guys, many of you might know that because it's one of my favorite.

[00:02:59] It's probably my top prep of all. Like if I had to say, what is my top prep of all? Would you guys watch a YouTube video channel of me just talking about that kind of stuff, review stuff? You know, if I did that kind of thing,

[00:03:16] I could avoid getting, but I hate so much to dance the YouTube jig. I don't know. Fatherhood's very important to me folks. I did a podcast and I'll share it with you when it comes out with prepared mentality.

[00:03:32] We turned that thing into a fatherhood podcast because he's about to be a dad and I've been a dad for 12 years, 13 years, and you know, it's just there's nothing like it for men.

[00:03:47] I mean the idea that me and my wife used to think like we're not gonna have kids is bananas. It's bonkers. The idea that we would pull up,

[00:03:55] like we would go on vacation and it'd be us too, and we'd be like what do you want to do today? Okay, what do you want to do today? And that's one like very minuscule example, you know what I mean?

[00:04:09] I used to say, which is funny because of what's on my computer right now, I used to say it's an ascension. It's basically like going super saiyan for those of you out there who are Dragon Ball Z fans. It's a power up.

[00:04:25] I mean it is. A man who's a father and has been a father or even a man who is a new father is such a different thing than a man who's never been a father.

[00:04:33] I don't care. You know, you're not supposed to say that kind of stuff because everybody's equal. I don't care. Until you have a thing that is beckoning all the time in your house, you can't understand it. You know what I mean? Until you understand the...

[00:04:52] But one of the biggest growing moments for me as dad was understanding that this is a limited time offer. That's tough, you know, because you marry your wife for life and you're like, I like this woman, man.

[00:05:07] I'd like to spend my life with her and the trouble with kids is, you know, if you raise them pretty well, if you care a little bit, you wind up with people that like, I like this dude too.

[00:05:19] I wouldn't mind playing video games and camping and picking raspberries with this guy for the rest of my life either. And you can't do that. You know what I mean? It's not an option and you and then you realize the reason

[00:05:34] that I am having the moment that I'm having is because my dad sent me out into the world and it's, you know, maybe it's not so hard for other dads. Like I said, I took a unique route because I

[00:05:48] started freelance writing and working from home with my kids at a very young age and you know, I was with them all time by design. There's a man by the name of Charles Kettering who made a quote that graces my computer screen and that quote's pretty straightforward.

[00:06:07] It says every father should remember one day his son will follow his example, not his advice. And if you really want to reduce fatherhood down, this has been on my computer for probably six months now because I think it is,

[00:06:23] it's it. It's the best. There is nothing better for dads to understand, right? Every father should remember one day his son will follow his example, not his advice. Charles Kettering. And it's not about the things that you understand

[00:06:43] that you do and your kids see. It's about being aware of the example 24-7 that you set and look right off the top. You're gonna do things that are terrible as a dad. Just get through it, you know, get over it. Get through it.

[00:07:00] I've been doing it my whole life. I've been doing it. It's gonna happen. It happens much less now, but you're gonna do things. You know, you're gonna scream. You're gonna throw shit. You're gonna do things because you're a man also, you know what I mean?

[00:07:17] And life gets hard and life gets crazy and money drives you nuts and you know all the things, you know what I mean? So understand that that that's not the example I want you to focus on. God,

[00:07:29] I can't believe I said that to him. God, I can't believe I said that to his mom. You know what I mean? Those things are gonna happen.

[00:07:35] I made that choice, you know, one of the things that I have a tendency to do horribly as a father is I just do stuff. If the time is right to explain something to my kids, that's a big moment. I just do it and I leave my wife

[00:07:50] out in the outfield sometimes and that's wrong of me. But like I said, those are the things to not worry about. My kids are video gaming kids, probably like your kids. You know what I mean? They they like that stuff. They like screens and all that. And

[00:08:09] one of the things that I didn't understand about examples was one of my favorite things in the world. It doesn't really happen much anymore because everything dies. My son would wake up my youngest. My oldest would do it too when he was younger.

[00:08:26] But he would wake up and you would come downstairs and he would sit on my lap and tell me about his dream. You know, almost all the time, like almost every day of summer break.

[00:08:41] That's what he would do. He would come down and sit on my lap and what he would see, my example, what he would see is he would walk downstairs, maybe you know 8-9 o'clock and he would see dad's back

[00:08:54] staring at a screen because this is you know, a lot of what I do to make a living. So this you know obviously builds in your kids like this is what men do. Not all men, but you know, this is my prime example.

[00:09:11] He spends time looking at screens and those are the though you have to look at your kids and you have to say you know, this is part of it. This is part of why you know, they are the way they are too.

[00:09:23] And you know, it just is what it's nothing bad. It's nothing good. It just is what it is. You know, it's allowed me to do amazing things and live an incredible life and it's just

[00:09:32] just what it is. But the reason I bring it up is because of the example. In other words, if dad gets out of his chair that he's been in for a few hours and says you kids need to go outside and spend more time outside,

[00:09:47] then it looks funny. They look at you and go like, yeah, you probably need to go outside too, dude. You know what I mean? So every father should remember one day his son will follow his example, not his advice. Okay? Let's get into the goods.

[00:10:02] Let's get into the goods. I'm gonna throw some stuff at you, man. Some of it's stuff I want, some of it's stuff I always use. I'll bounce back and forth because we'll have a little fun with it.

[00:10:16] Because I think you know, there's some cool preps out there that I've never even heard of. I was introduced to a marketer named Bawana. Instagram, for all its flaws, has made connected me with a lot of great people. And Bawana works for a website called safecastle.com and

[00:10:37] safecastle.com is it's got the goods, man. And they're not a sponsor or anything. They're not like a long-term sponsor. But I want you to understand I'm always on the lookout for a like a prep or store like safecastle.com, you know, I'm always looking for them.

[00:11:00] Take out a product over there that I gotta have. I have to have it. It's a little pricey, but it's sweet and it's called the Floodgate. And the Floodgate, man, is unbelievable. 35 inch by 40 inch openings, 35 inch to 40 inches, and

[00:11:20] it's a quick dam that goes, you know, in doorways, in wherever you would need to put it, crawl space. I don't know exactly what it's made out of. Floodwater protection up to 26 inches high, adjustable and expands to fit multiple doorways.

[00:11:37] It's pretty cool, man. And the Floodgate is the most expensive and coolest one. They've got other great products too that are all geared towards this idea of flood preparedness. I don't know if it's a thing, but it's a thing for me where I live.

[00:11:53] Quick dam sandbags, they sell like a bucket of quick dam sandbags, grab-and-go flood bucket, five 10 foot flood barriers in the bucket. I don't know, these things are cool. These things are cool and they're on my Father's Day wish list, I could tell you that much.

[00:12:09] It's a cool little item, the quick dam, I think. But Juana was kind enough to give us a code, and I don't remember what the code is. Let me check. Let me do a double take. Okay, SP save 10. With a minimum purchase of $2.50.

[00:12:36] Let me see exactly what you're getting off. Boana, I'm sorry, I'm unprepared, I've been feeling like death lately. $10 off, okay, $10 off. There you go. If you're interested, savecastle.com. I want to talk about more stuff from there, so they've got cool stuff. spsavetenn.com

[00:12:53] Now let's see, I'll give you one of my picks for Dad. Well you know what? Let's talk about Survive Drive while I got your attention because this is a cool product that's been invented. I'll have to link to it down below because it's in the Indiegogo.

[00:13:09] phase. So it's been invented, it's in development now. And it's essentially a paracord bracelet. But instead of it being like a fire starter or buckle at the end, it's a USB. And it's designed to fit, it's got fittings for both iPhone and Android.

[00:13:32] And it's packed with a survival library. And I think it's a really cool, it's a really cool backup to the backup. You know what I mean? I think it's a pretty awesome backup to the backup.

[00:13:43] In other words, I can't, you know, it's not likely in most survival situations that I'm going to be, you know, putting myself like in a book to find my way out of an issue. I'm going to go wood or fire.

[00:13:55] Signal probably, you know what I mean? And start moving. But all that said, man, I don't have my navigation game up to snuff as good as it should be. You know what I'm saying? Like there are things.

[00:14:12] Maybe building certain shelters, it'd be nice to have a look at. So what you do is you take this thing, it's got a compass and a clip and it's paracord and all that good stuff. Let me see what else is in. I don't know the full.

[00:14:28] Use that as a medical bracelet so first responders know how to treat you, safeguard your most important files and photos. You can upload whatever you want on it, but they also offer it. So you can get a lot of stuff.

[00:14:39] Use that as a medical bracelet so first responders know how to treat you, safeguard your most important files and photos. You can upload whatever you want on it, but they also offer survival libraries.

[00:14:49] And like I said, when you pop this thing open, boom, you got your USB in the middle there and it's packed with the goods. It's pretty cool. Pretty cool. MySurvivedrive.com, I'll link to what I'm going to link to for you is the Indiegogo and the show.

[00:15:04] So you can go, probably get like, they're going to be 25 bucks each. I'm sure if you go to the Indiegogo you can get them for like 15 or 20, I don't remember all the details. Yeah man, cool. Innovators. Innovators. Innovators out there doing it.

[00:15:25] I got to talk about the Hydro Blue. The Hydro Blue is an old prep. It's a prep I've had a long time. And it's one of those things, man. It's like I got to have it. If my Hydro Blue disappeared, I'd be suddenly very nervous.

[00:15:42] And it's because it's my transportation of water and it's another redundancy on filtration of water. And it's just perfect, man. It's one of these things that's just perfect. It's designed to be easy carried. The water is under pressure just by pumping the water.

[00:16:00] And using the water it gets forced through the filter. It's tremendous. The Hydro Blue Jerry Can, it never shows up anymore on ads and stuff like that. I've gone to them a million times trying to get them to, you know what I mean?

[00:16:17] Please, I love your product. They don't care. That's okay. It's fine. If we don't sell them it don't make money. It don't make sense to them. You know what I mean? But for me personally, must have. It's an absolute must have.

[00:16:31] How many of you guys have heard of a Kelly Kettle? Have you ever heard of a Kelly Kettle? The Kelly Kettle is a bad ass little device for, well it could be used for camping and everything.

[00:16:48] Not just necessarily surviving the end of the world and all that kind of stuff. I'm sure some of you out there have one. They come in a variety of sizes. They can cook and boil water and do all the things. I don't have one.

[00:17:01] This is another wish list item. It's one of those ones I'm pretty sure you got to use like a weird fuel. And I'm not a big fan of the weird fuels. Say goodbye to disposable fuel that Kelly Kettle, oh no I was wrong.

[00:17:16] Yeah this thing is so sweet. I'm going to get one of these. Stainless steel, 41 fluid ounce capacity, 2.2 pounds. This kit goes beyond boiling water, included fire base pot, grill and gripper. Handle allows you to cook complete camping meal all using the same natural fuel source.

[00:17:34] They're awesome dude. I mean they got it all. They got it all. You get the fire base, the hobo stove, the cook pot, the small camp cup, the large camp cup, the cook pot lid, two plates, gripper and grate and pot support. Sweet.

[00:17:51] I mean it would take some time. Like you'd have to use the Kelly Kettle probably several times before you were like, yeah I use the Kelly Kettle man. I use it all the time. You know what I mean? Before you felt like you were really versed in it.

[00:18:08] But it is one of those things. You know I would get rid of my jet boil. I would get rid of my cheap opening, you know the thing that screws onto the jet boil. I don't know the names of this stuff and I bought these things years ago.

[00:18:23] They work. I use them. I'm not a geek when it comes to gear types and names and nodes and all that. But another great one man. Another great one for dad. He may love a Kelly Kettle. Oh and safecastle.com. Get your Kelly Kettle over there.

[00:18:40] How about another one that I can't live without? Another one that I can't live without man. This is a little cheap one. This is one that is very valuable particularly to preppers and campers and outdoorsmen.

[00:18:54] But I think it's really cool and you can get it, you know you can get a creative one, a fun one. It's a little lighter holder key ring. You know that you shove the lighter up in. I can't even imagine they cost more than ten bucks.

[00:19:07] I got one sent to me by a friend that said let's go brand it on. It was 3D printed. It's the best. It's absolutely the best. It's so nice to always have a lighter. I don't smoke, you know what I mean?

[00:19:19] So I don't carry lighters on the regular. I mean I got them in vehicles and backpacks and that kind of stuff but as far as in my pocket I don't carry lighters. Now I do because I slip that thing in there and it just stays there.

[00:19:30] So it's fire. You know you could get into fancy stuff and ferro-serum rods and you use the black beard rope to start your fire. All that's good. I spent many, many, many years guys figuring out how to be good at fire.

[00:19:47] I really did. I spent many years failing. I spent many years learning how to use the ferro rods to start fire. Then I thought oh you know what? I can start fire. I've got this fire thing figured out.

[00:19:57] Then I realized I don't know shit. I have to now build the fire and sustain the fire properly so that I can walk away from it for two seconds

[00:20:06] or get it big enough that it warms me or big enough that I can cook on it all of the above, right? And those things they take time. Those things take time. Don't underestimate fire.

[00:20:18] I know more than two hands worth of people that have come directly to me and said dude I can't make a fire. We got a fire pit out back. We go out there. I spray gasoline. I spray oil. They don't know how to do it.

[00:20:31] You know what I mean? So it is a skill. There's no doubt about it. Once you hone it in, once you know I can start a fire with a ferro rod if I need to.

[00:20:40] I know how to make the tinder, bird nest. I can put something together, get a flame going. Once you're secure in that, lighter. You know what would be cool? I'll tell you what would be really cool is if someone created one with a Zippo.

[00:20:56] Some kind of holder that the Zippo can go in. You know it's probably like a leather one. That would be nice too for that. We have a ton of Zippo lighters. I should carry one.

[00:21:06] What else? We did the Survive Drive. Yeah check the Survive Drive out man. I met him through Instagram also. He's a cool dude. He was a really cool guy. He's got a great idea. Once he gets up and running, I'm going to start peppering him with questions about

[00:21:21] how about we EMP proof that thing. That kind of stuff. Get it going. The sling bag for me is essential. I don't know how many dads are into carrying a sling bag.

[00:21:35] Whatever. If it's your thing, then it's your thing. If it ain't, it ain't. It's not hurting my feelings. But to me, if dad's going to have fun, dad needs to be able to carry effectively.

[00:21:48] Maybe that's the takeaway. My thing to do, I have been looking at Arrowhead Tactical Shorts lately though. They look pretty promising. Check them out. Arrowhead Tactical Shorts. Because this dad goes out and has fun with the family. We do crazy stuff.

[00:22:07] You can't do it all, especially not in the summer, in tactical pants. So dad has to have a way, and I like it off body better than on body personally. Because then I don't have to worry about going upside down. You don't have to worry about these things.

[00:22:23] Going in water, all that. If dad has something he can take off, something off his body. Even if it's one of those things, one of those fanny packs. Something that gives dad an option to carry that firearm.

[00:22:37] And I'll tell you right now, if your dad's the type of guy, or if you're a dad out there who carries a big honking firearm. And you're like, this is the one I need. I know how bad things are out here.

[00:22:48] I tell you this, with a sling bag, one of the things that you can do is, you can carry, even on your person, you can carry a subcompact firearm. A smaller firearm with a smaller magazine. And just buy one or two extended magazines for your gun.

[00:23:07] Like in other words, you're walking around and dealing with a threat that occurs, which is rare already. You got your pistol, it's in your hip, and so on and so forth, wherever you carry it.

[00:23:19] If something crazy happens, you know, three guys kick the door open at the theater with AR-15s like we saw in Russia. You know, Mohammed's best kicked the door in and they're coming for you.

[00:23:32] And then you can just say, all right, let me drop this 10 round magazine out and put this 30 round magazine in and put this other 30 rounder in my back pocket.

[00:23:41] Or, you know, whatever, easy access. And go, you know, not go to work. If you're with your family, what are you going to do? You're going to fire at them and get the hell out of there, right?

[00:23:51] You're going to lay down a suppressive fire and back up and get out, right? And if you hit one and kill one in the process, great. But, you know, you're not going, all right, honey, run to the car. Avoid the bullets flinging every witch away.

[00:24:05] And what we're going to do is a daddy's going to go take down three guys with rifles. It's not the play, right? The play is to, if they don't see you, you know, then you can get the hell out of there.

[00:24:16] Maybe. I don't know. It depends. I can't say in honesty. Maybe you get your family to the exit and then go in and do work. But there's inherent risk, you know? There's a serious risk. Could be it. Could be your last dance.

[00:24:29] But of course in that situation, the other thing that you call into question is let's say you skirt out the back. And this is personal. I'm not giving advice. This is personal. Say you skirt out the back door with your family and everybody's safe and you go home.

[00:24:42] Police come, you know, all that, the thing running. They killed everybody. Imagine they just killed everybody and then blew themselves up, you know? And you've just got to be able to sit there and go like, I wonder if I could have stopped that.

[00:24:56] I wonder if I could have done more to prevent that. Maybe. Maybe not. I don't know. You know? It's dark. It's a dark thing. I don't know how we got there from buy your dad a sling bag.

[00:25:09] That's one that I can't live without. That's an essential. That's an absolute essential. We're going to go back to Safe Castle. I love these guys. I'm going to Badrum. I hope they start making a lot of money because we're going to Badrum for sponsorship for sure.

[00:25:25] I just love the... It's hard for a website to put together a list of prepping goods that are good. You know what I mean? Like you look at them, you see Made in America. You see high quality stuff. You know what I mean?

[00:25:41] A lot of these sites, you go to a prepper site and you see stuff that's made in China. You see like you guys can tell. And this is what I was always worried about.

[00:25:50] I don't want to represent some kind of place where you will go in there and you see they got like, hmm, let me think. They got like the hand crank radio for a certain dollar amount. You know what I mean?

[00:26:04] They got the storm matches. Not that they're wrong with storm matches but you know. There's some of these campy silly 16 in 1 survival axe thing. See I can't even bad mouth the old 16 in 1 axe because my son has one of those in his bug out bag.

[00:26:20] It's not a bad... I mean look, who makes that one? It's not the worst tool, I'll tell you that. Probably what makes it the best is that it has a foldable saw in it. You know, the handle has a foldable... I can't think of the brand.

[00:26:35] Off grid tools. I reviewed it years ago and I gave one away. And then I got another one one year for speaking at prepper camp. It was a good time. But they got Yoder's natural, they got Sport T, they got all kinds of good top quality survival food.

[00:26:53] Let's go freeze dried food. Let's see what brand they use. We'll put them on blast real quick. Yeah, you come here, look this stuff is in my opinion probably the best. Mountain house foods, ready wise and military surplus. Future Essentials, another great brand.

[00:27:12] You know, they got the stuff. I'm gonna have to... I don't know. It's not that easy. I mean you can go to like Emergency Essentials or one of those big guys but... I like the little guys just starting out.

[00:27:27] And it's so cool to see somebody put together. I mean there's tons of items. Alright, let me stop. Let me stop giving them a back rub. But I do want to talk to you about the radiation detectors.

[00:27:40] Because we're living in this age man. We're living in this age. Oh they've got a nuke alert. Man, I still got a nuke alert. The nuke alert is going for $166. How can that be that much money? $195 for the nuke alert.

[00:27:56] Well it's a good thing we're about to talk about the FNIRSI GCO1 Geiger counter. Nuclear radiation detector, personal dosimeter for $69.50 on sale. And they also have the cool... you know if you really want to get that something to get started... You can hit them with the rad triage.

[00:28:16] The rad triage, that's the 50 personal radiation detector for wallet or pocket. And these things are kind of cool man, the little rad triage. I always thought about them. I never bought them. But what I thought about and I thought the best way to use them would be...

[00:28:33] Because it's like a card. And the card... it's sort of like a water test or like a pH test. The card tells you whereabouts you are with nuclear radiation in the air. And I always loved this idea because I said to myself...

[00:28:48] If we were in a situation where nuke started going off... You know, even if it wasn't around me... I'd take a rad triage and I would hammer it into a tree that I could see from my window.

[00:29:02] You know what I mean? So now I can look out my window and say... Okay we're doing okay. It hasn't gone up much. And the sensor's not going up. The sensor's not changed at all. You know? These rad triage cards are fun.

[00:29:16] Guys I need to talk about survival gear more, don't I? I never talk about it very much. I don't know why. Why is that? I've got a lot of experience with this stuff. I barely ever bring it to you.

[00:29:27] But yeah, Geiger counter rad triage... something along those lines. Another great one for Dad, man, is a kettlebell. You know, you've got to brief him on it. You've got to show him what the deal is. But Dad can take a kettlebell and transform himself.

[00:29:43] Look, here... I'll give you this. You get Dad a kettlebell and you let me know... Or if you've got a dad who wants to be a member or if you want to get Dad a membership this weekend, you let me know.

[00:29:54] Reach out through Element. Reach out through PrepperBroadcasting.com. Through the contact page. I'll give you a discount on membership for Dad. I didn't run anything special. Our big membership deals never really do very good. Whatever. No big deal.

[00:30:11] But if you're listening to this and you're going, you know what? Dad would love to be able to sit down and look over those spreadsheets and watch those videos. Do the Prepper fit and health. Do the Bushcraft for Preppers videos.

[00:30:24] Listen to the Bugout series. Take all the incredible courses over at PBNfamily.com. Yeah, might be time. Might be time. But the benefit of getting a membership with a kettlebell is...

[00:30:38] We have a whole series. A whole beginners kettlebell series that we put up over at Prepper Fit and Health. I'll direct you to it. Don't you worry. The other thing is if you screwed up and you're like, oh, I didn't get Dad anything.

[00:30:54] PBN membership tomorrow. Right? You can have a PBN membership tomorrow. You can have a... You really want to make Dad excited. You can also have an Ammo Squared membership tomorrow. Yeah, AmmoSquared.com slash PBN are incredible. Incredible sponsor. Amazing. Those guys.

[00:31:13] Those guys are padding the stats for me on Ammo every month. It feels so good. I can't... You know, I always talk about the Preps that feel good. This is one of those Preps that feels good. It's like... I just want to forget about it.

[00:31:24] I just want to forget about it. I give them 50 bucks a month. I want to forget about that 50 bucks a month. I want a year to go by and I want to be like, ship the Ammo. I'm going to get a new Ammo.

[00:31:33] I just get bricks and bricks. You know what I mean? It'll load it down. I don't know. It's exciting to me. So, excuse me. Sorry. The infection. The infected commander. Prepper's Medical Handbook, another great one.

[00:31:52] But like I said, more in the vein of whoops, didn't get Dad anything. Refuge Medical. You could schedule him a class, you know? Something like that. Disaster Call. You know, I don't got to go through all the hymen and the hawn.

[00:32:11] I want to read something to you. I may read it all. I may not. I'm sorry for like the bing-bong-bong-bong in the background if you hear it. Oh yeah, you hear it. I'm holding the microphone in my hand. I didn't bring a boom with me.

[00:32:25] I'm holding the microphone in my hand and sweating like you wouldn't believe. Perfuse. And all I want is a ham and cheese sandwich. You know what I'm saying? I've been reading Rugby Chapel for a very long time. And I've been reading selected segments by poet Matthew Arnold.

[00:32:44] Because they blow me away. I mean, they really do. I didn't know how Rugby Chapel could be so good until I realized that Rugby Chapel is the name for where his father was buried.

[00:32:58] And on a visit to Rugby Chapel and probably return home, you know, he was the way I look at it. He was given one last gift from his dad. And that was, you know, he dad's in the ground for like a year I think.

[00:33:14] And dad gives him one last gift and he gives him what I think is one of the best poems ever written really. Matthew Arnold, Rugby Chapel. Coldly sadly descends the autumn evening. The field strewn with its dank yellow drifts of withered leaves and elms fade into dimness apace.

[00:33:38] Silent hardly a shout from a few boys late at their play. That's such a good line. I love that sound. The lights come out in the street, in the schoolroom windows, but cold, solemn, unlighted, austere. Through the gathering darkness arise the chapel walls.

[00:33:57] In whose bound thou my father art laid. There thou dost lie in the gloom of the autumn evening. But ah, that word gloom to my mind brings thee back in the light. Of thy radiant vigor again.

[00:34:14] In the gloom of November we pass, days not dark at thy side. Seasons impaired, not the ray of thy buoyant cheerfulness clear. Such thou wast and I stand in the autumn evening. And think of bygone autumns with thee.

[00:34:30] I mean this is a dad who had an effect on his son. You know what I mean? Fifteen years have gone round since thou arose to tread. Oh so he was dead fifteen years. In the summer morning the road of death.

[00:34:45] At a call unforeseen, sudden for fifteen years. We who till then in thy shade rested as under the boughs of a mighty oak. Have endured sunshine and rain as we might bear unshaded alone lacking the shelter of thee. I mean you know.

[00:35:04] He's making his father into the metaphor of a mighty oak tree who. You know shaded the whole family from everything that is dad you know. This is not a, this is an old poem.

[00:35:18] Oh strong soul by what sure tarryst thou now for that force surely has not been left vain. Somewhere, surely afar in the sounding labor house vast of being. Is practice that strength, zealous, beneficent, firm. I'll go on a little longer I won't read you the whole thing.

[00:35:38] I'll read it when I'm off the air and cry like a baby. Yes in some far shining sphere conscious or not of the past. Still thou performest the word of the spirit. In whom thou dost live prompt unwearied as here.

[00:35:55] Still thou upraises the zeal, the humble good from the ground. Sternly represseth the bad. Still like a trumpet dost rouse those who with half open eyes tread the borderland dim. Twixt vice and virtue revisit suck arrest. This was thy work. This was thy life upon this earth.

[00:36:15] What is the course of life of mortal men on the earth? Most men eddy about here and there eat and drink. Chatter and love and hate gather and squander. Are raised aloft are hurled in the dust striving blindly. Achieving nothing. And then they die. Parish.

[00:36:39] And no one asks who or what they have been. More than he asks what waves in the moonlit solitudes mild of the mid most ocean have swelled. Foamed for a moment and gone. I hope that you guys get that.

[00:36:56] I really I don't you know I know many of you are very intelligent and do get it but I just. If you can understand the profundity of men and their lives being waves crashing in the middle of the ocean to the world.

[00:37:10] Right and no one ever knowing who or what they were. Because fatherhood fatherhood makes. The life of a of a man who is you know. Nada. In the face of the world today. A man who feels like he has made no.

[00:37:36] Made nothing you know amazing that this kind of world this all of our worlds of stage life would appreciate a man who feels like he does his job and comes home. And he's not known for anything he has no greatness he has no fame he has you know.

[00:37:53] He is because we all are right he is a man who feels like he has. Is a man he is a wave crashing in the mid most oceans out there by himself you know what makes it different for men what makes life worth while for men. His fatherhood.

[00:38:22] Because the moment you have a child right you fall in love with a woman she's she idolizes you maybe or something along those lines for a little while then that gets old and she's you know I got a good man he's.

[00:38:31] Check some boxes for me we're in love the idea. But you have a little boy and. You become Superman.

[00:38:41] You know I'm sure it's the same with a little girl you have a little girl you become something you become it doesn't matter if you're a plumber it doesn't matter what you do you know what I mean that this world would look upon this broken shallow world would look upon and say you know it's just some.

[00:38:56] Some guy who cuts you know long does roofs where you know. You become the mighty oak I think that's the best place to end in an age of suicide and men killing themselves left and right.

[00:39:10] That's probably the best way to end the show like this and the best lesson I can leave you with you know we can't all be famous and rich and incredible and go down in history but if you want to feel those feelings man.

[00:39:24] That's what being a father does for the average guy I appreciate your PBN family don't worry about it. I appreciate your PBN family don't worry. I'll be better before long okay I'll talk to you this week everything will be fine and.

[00:39:41] I appreciate you all guys are incredible you know every one of you that listens to these podcasts. I'll explain more soon it's up second you know what I mean but you guys allow.

[00:39:53] A lot of great things in my life and one of them is the feeling I got when I got on this microphone I mean I'm feeling like death to all like from about.

[00:40:02] Probably since about midday and I took some medicine and then I got behind this microphone in the moment I hit record I just felt.

[00:40:09] Just a life came up in me because you all right I'll talk to you guys soon check out the survive drive links down below check out safe castle of links down below to do them a solid they're people we are.

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